When do you know that you're right? When do you know if what you're doing is correct or beneficial for you in the long run? I guess, it all depends on how well you "plan" your next step. As a still "young adult" I constantly fall into the sunk cost fallacy dilemma: is it worth it to continue doing something that has cost you so much to achieve, yet suffer most of the journey?
It is hard to contend against one's heart's desire; for whatever it wishes to have it buys at the cost of soul.
I usually think about where I've been, what I've done, and where I'm currently located for the purpose of seeing my improvement over time.
The last three years were somehow interesting. I lived in New York City, the city the never sleeps, the big apple, the place where dreams come true, where the lights "inspire" you, and so on. Yes, it is an amazing city. Yes, it is a city that will demand the best of you, but it is also the city that might take away not only energy, but motivation from you in BIG chunks.
I've learned that New York City won't be holding your dreams and expectations on a golden dish, and hot chocolate to warm you down in the strong winter, or even hug you hello in the morning when you have to dodge elbows, umbrellas, shopping bags on your way to work. Just like it won't tuck you in bed at night as you breathe noisily at the loud sirens humming you a late-night lullaby.
This city is not looking for newbies, it's looking for talent. If you come like me, with only language skills and a great a positive attitude you will have an "okay" time. Pursue your dream job is often the reason people move to the city.
Dreams are often confused with, I TRIED once and failed "Oh, I can't achieve my dream". How many times have you heard this? They are difficult.I feel that having a dream is a huge part of our identity, is part of our day-to-day lives . Our dreams are our most authentic self fighting and yelling to come out to prove, "it is possible." It is the person we were meant to become.When we follow a dream we are putting ourselves on the line. We can no longer hold tight to the deception we like to tell ourselves: "I couldn't make it" "I tried" " It's impossible". To is all of these things is just holding you back, New York doesn't do that, New York encourages you but also takes away from you. Remember: When you follow your dream everything is on the line!
In the end, I wish I could write all of what I experienced in this beautiful city. I met great people, people who will remain with me for the rest of my life. But, most importantly, this city made me feel a big failure MANY times, but it also made me feel I was, though little by little, getting where I wanted to be.
Will I ever come back? Looking forward to seeing what happens!